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Chrissy's Little Mistake
by Lubrican
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Chapter Two
While I was driving Bobby home I still kept the secret. I
don't know why, since it was going to bust wide open the instant he saw
her. Or the instant he hugged her, anyway. When she
gave me a hug nowadays there was obviously something pressing against
my stomach.
But I'd told her she was going to have to tell him sooner or
later. I guess it was going to be sooner.
On the way I heard all about basic and what he called A.I.T.
It was different than I had thought it would be. They got a
lot less law enforcement than I expected, and a lot more security type
instruction.
His appetite hadn't suffered. While I avoided fast food these
days, he was ravenous for it. We stopped at a Sonic and he
ordered three entrees off the menu, with what looked like heaps of
tater tots and a 44 ounce drink. He ate while I
drove.
I don't think there was anything left after about ten miles.
I had my cell phone with me, but I guess it just never occurred to me
to call Chrissy and warn her Bobby was coming home.
When I pulled in the driveway it was after midnight, and there were no
lights on in the house. I was pretty bushed. I
guess I assumed Bobby would see her ... and find out ... the next
morning.
That's not quite how it worked out.
I had just gotten in bed when Chrissy screamed "Bobby! What are you doing here?"
There was some shushing sounds and then the hallway lit up a little bit
as somebody turned on a light. I guess he'd left the door
open when he went in to wake her up and tell her he was home.
His voice was the next thing I heard.
"What the fuck?" It was a very strained, loud, but at the
same time he was obviously trying to be quiet. Then a little
louder "Why didn't you tell me?"
I heard Chrissy's voice and winced. I'd told her she'd have
to face this.
"Fuck, Chrissy!" came Bobby's voice, again trying to be quiet, and
failing. It was the next thing he said that made me sit up in
bed: "What are we going to do?!"
You know how something happens that doesn't make sense, and you know it
should make sense, but it just doesn't and there's nothing you can do
to figure it out, and then one little detail makes it all come clear? Something about the way he said that just
turned a light on in my brain and illuminated everything. I
didn't like what I saw, because in that light that faceless male who
had plagued my dreams ... the one hunched over my baby girl, getting
her pregnant ... turned out to be my son. I just knew it,
somehow. I didn't want to believe it, but there was that note
in his voice that just said it. What are "we" going to
do? He should have said, "What are you going to do."
I had no idea what to do. I knew I should get up and go
confront them. But what if I was wrong? You can
accuse your kids of a lot of things and get away with it ... but
accusing them of incest ... and being wrong about it? I knew that would turn out
badly. In fact, either way it was going to turn out
badly. And, to be honest, I just didn't want to know right
then. I was in shock.
So I didn't get up.
I should have. I don't think I slept at all that night, as
tired as I was from the trip. I'd had some clues.
Maybe you, the reader had already figured it out by now. But
it just wasn't something I'd contemplated.
I contemplated the hell out of it now. They'd always been
close. They didn't fight and feud like a lot of siblings
do. And when Marie had taken off, they'd sought comfort in
each other's company. I'd known that ... I just didn't know
how much comfort they'd sought.
I spent some time trying to convince myself I should have known,
somehow. Then I went through a period of doubt.
What if that closeness I'd seen simply meant that, like me, Bobby
considered himself as just being in this with her. He was her
brother, and he felt responsible for making sure she was all
right. How could I have just assumed the worst? I
spent a lot of time that night thinking about what a pathetic father
I'd been ... was.
Then, about five in the morning, I realized two things.
The first was that Bobby hadn't stormed into my room wanting to know
why I hadn't told him.
The second was that I didn't hear the front door slam as he left the
house to go find the son of a bitch who had knocked up his sister, and
kill him.
Those two little facts solidified my suspicions, but by then hours had
passed, and it was too late to do any kind of confrontation that would
do anybody any good.
I must have dozed, because when I opened my eyes the sun was
up. I felt like shit. I got up at the insistence of
my bladder and looked at the wreck in the mirror when I was
done. I didn't even have the urge to shave.
I wondered if they were still in the house. Then I panicked
as I thought about the possibility that they'd fled together, to avoid
my wrath. I didn't feel very wrathful. My state of
mind was more in the realm of confusion than anger. Several
times during the night I thought about how, over the last couple of
months when I got the chance, I stared at my daughter's
pussy. True, Bobby had done more than look ... but how big a
difference was it really? I'd gotten hard for her.
I'd had some fantasies as I jacked off, replacing that faceless man
with myself.
When I entered the kitchen I know I must have been a little
wild-eyed. I was a bit frantic, fearing that I'd lost both my
kids. But Chrissy was standing at the stove, cooking
something, just like it was a normal day. Bobby was sitting
at the table with a cup of coffee, reading the paper. A sound
of agonized relief came from my throat and they both looked over at me.
Maybe it was the look on my face. Maybe they just wanted to
get it over with. For whatever reason Bobby stood up and just
said, "Dad, I'm the one who got Chrissy pregnant."
Just like that.
I know I stood there looking stunned, but the absolutely outrageous
thing was the reason I was so stunned. I'd spent the last two
months hating the man who got my daughter pregnant. I'd had a
basically sleepless night of torture as I contemplated accusing my kids
of incest. Never mind that there are a dozen or more cultures
in the world that are just fine with that behavior. Ours
wasn't one of them. But the reason I was stunned at that
moment was because I felt an overwhelming sense of relief.
It was very complicated, now that I think back on it. Part of
the relief, as I said before, was because they were both still
there. But the complicated part was that I was actually relieved that
it had been Bobby who she had parted her legs for. I loved
Bobby, and I loved her, and it was impossible in those few moments to
hate either of them. It was impossible even to be unhappy
with them. Later on I'd worry about things that everybody
worries about when incest produces a baby, but at that moment in time I
was elated that it was Bobby's baby in that gently swelling belly,
instead of some stranger's.
Which explains why I blurted, "Thank goodness!"
I don't know how much later it was that I fully came to my
senses. There was a lot of noise going on in that
room. Somehow we had all come together in a group hug, and
all three of us were talking at the same time. We were all
crying too. It was a surreal kind of situation to find one's
self in, and I'm sure they both felt that way too.
At any rate, eventually a sort of halting story came out.
He'd been getting ready to go off to basic training. She was
worried about him. His girlfriend had broken up with him,
angry that he was leaving her for the Army. Chrissy was
scared that something would happen to him. He probably was
too, though he'd never have admitted it. So they were both
strung out emotionally and a hug had turned into something wild and
passionate as each tried to express the depth of feeling for the
other. He'd kissed away her tears and, at some point in the
process, his lips had brushed hers. They were overwhelmed
with feelings that demanded more until suddenly they were on the bed
and their clothes were coming off.
Afterwards they tried to make sense of what they'd done. He'd
taken her virginity. At the time she hadn't cared.
In the aftermath they felt guilty, but at the same time it had been
undeniably precious to both of them. Neither had had time to
process the storm of emotion because Bobby had left the next day.
I remembered the mood in the house that morning, as I got ready to take
him to the airport. I'd had my own feelings to deal with as I
sent my son off to an unknown future. I'd completely missed
that part of the somber mood that was the result of lovers torn apart.
Finally the surge of emotions began to wane and we were left there in
the kitchen with a big invisible question mark filling the room.
What was going to happen now?
Society puts expectations on its citizens. As a result, the
citizens put expectations on themselves. It's all supposed to
affect behavior. Then things like love, passion, imagination
and even hormones have an effect on behavior that conflict with
society' expectations. It can make for a tumultuous
life. A lot of it depends on how seriously you take society's
strictures. Or maybe it's more to do with whether
or not you think you can stay below society's radar.
The next two days were a little like trying to tiptoe barefoot across a
room where five pounds of thumbtacks have been spilled. You
try to pick a path that seems least likely to result in pain.
At the same time, you have to get across the room - go about your
routine business.
In other words, it stayed complicated. I was honestly
relieved to know who the father of Chrissy's baby was. More
to the point, I was relieved that it wasn't somebody other than
Bobby. But that didn't mean I approved of a resumption of the
activity between them that had produced that baby.
I suspect it was just as complicated for them. A man and
woman who love each other, and have created life in the woman's womb,
can't just clamp off their feelings. I knew that.
While the boat of love that Marie and I boarded may have been leaky,
the fact that we had created Bobby and Chrissy had kept us bailing
until the last moment. Even now I still loved Marie on some
level.
When she had gone off to "find herself", it became pretty clear what
she meant when the divorce papers arrived and the grounds were listed
as "irreconcilable differences." The return address turned
out to be that of another realtor in her firm. I didn't fight
it because, to be honest, if she didn't want me, I didn't want her
either. I didn't like her very much, but she was
the mother of our children. The bond of father and mother
can't ever be broken completely. They might hate each other, but there's still a bond of sorts there.
I didn't spy on them, but my imagination more than made up for
that. Their heartfelt hugs and the way they practically
cuddled on the couch while we were watching TV made it obvious that
they had accepted their new relationship a lot more easily than I could. I remember once
walking into the living room to find her leaning back on the
couch with her legs spread. He was kneeling between them and
had raised her shirt up to bare her bulging belly. His hands
were making little figure eights, just caressing the bulge, and he was
talking to his baby. The look of love on her face was
unmistakable. It was almost jarring to see a big, tough
soldier being so gentle.
I wouldn't find out until months later that, for the two weeks Bobby
was home, they didn't have sex. They wanted to. But
everything was too new. They had a lot to think
about. And, of course, Bobby was leaving
again. There was a lot of wistfulness floating around in the
house those two weeks.
Along with the oddness of the situation, there were other things that
happened that seemed completely normal. They did go running
together, for example. When they got back, both were gasping
for air like I had been after half a mile that first day I ran with
her. I'd never seen Chrissy really out of breath.
Her face was red and she stood, bent over, her hands on her knees, just
breathing. He was just as winded, though he walked around in
circles while he got his breath back. It was clear they had
competed. The only thing that complicated that perfectly
domestic scene was when, before he headed for the shower, he stopped to
give her a lingering kiss on the lips. She put one hand on
his stomach and pushed him away from her. "You're sweaty and
you stink," she complained.
It was that kind of very normal and very abnormal mixture of behavior
that made things seem so complicated.
Another thing that complicated the situation was that Chrissy had to go
back to school.
School was one of the things we agonized about. We all knew
that, when she showed up pregnant, things would be hard for
her. Kids are among the cruelest of human beings.
We knew that the baby would be delivered right in the middle of her
senior year, which would interrupt her studies. It wasn't
going to be easy. That was one reason it was good
Bobby was there when she first went back. It was also good
that everything was out in the open at home, because Bobby could
support her fully during that first tough week of school.
Then there was a moment of déjà vu as I drove
Bobby to the airport again and he boarded another plane to fly off to a
place fifteen hundred miles away. Chrissy didn't go
with us that time, either. She had school.
Chrissy and I settled into the new routine of her being gone most of
the day. I got my work done while she was at school so we
could spend more time together when she got home. She missed
Bobby. She'd missed him before, but now she could do so
completely.
As a result, she ended up cuddling with me in front of the
TV. I wasn't Bobby, but I was the next best thing.
She was getting bigger and bigger, and it was harder for her to get
comfortable. Sometimes she wanted to lie down, with her
shoulders and head on my lap. A pillow helped. That
was what created the next step in our family's little detour from the
straight and narrow, at least as far as society was concerned.
I had to put my hand somewhere, and the most comfortable and natural
place to rest it was ... her belly.
The first time I rested my hand there it was a little weird.
I hadn't touched her like that before. Because it
was weird I started to move my hand somewhere else, but she captured it
and held it there with both of her hands. I can't even
remember what we were watching on TV.
That became the norm. She'd lie there with my hand on her
belly, sometimes putting her hands over mine and sometimes
not. One night I remembered Bobby's hands stroking those
figure eights over her bulge and my hand just sort of copied
that. It felt good. My grandson was under there,
sleeping, maybe, and it just felt good to stroke him.
The first time he moved under my hand I about freaked out.
"He moved!" I yelped.
Chrissy laughed, because she'd been feeling movement for several
days. She hadn't said anything because she wasn't sure that
it really was the baby moving. Things were getting pretty
cramped in there and sometimes her organs moved around a little.
Feeling the baby move became a new game. I'd stroke her
belly, trying to spur the little tyke into motion. When
movement became more frequent, it was only natural to pull her shirt up
to watch the skin bulge and ripple as the baby turned over or kicked or
whatever. Several times we could see what was
clearly a heel or elbow sliding across under her skin.
December came and Bobby got some more leave. He didn't tell
us, but surprised us instead, just showing up. He was there
when Chrissy got home from school and I thought she'd go into labor, as
excited as she was. Their kiss left nothing to the
imagination, concerning how they felt about each other.
I stood by, the doting grandfather, as they broke that long, passionate
kiss and his hands went to explore what was twice as big as when he
last felt it.
"He moves all the time now," said Chrissy excitedly. "He's
going to be a runner, like me."
"You're so big!" sighed Bobby.
"It's your fault," she teased.
Then his hands slid upwards to cup breasts that were half again as big
as they had been before.
"These are getting big too," he said, grinning.
I'm pretty sure they had forgotten all about me. I felt like
I was a peeping Tom as his hands squeezed her teenaged breasts.
"That's your fault as well," she said softly. "And it's also
your fault that I'm horny all the time now.
"Really," he said, leaning down to kiss her again.
I turned to leave the room ... to leave them alone ... and ran smack
into the clothes tree standing behind me. It went
over and I tried to grab it, but just tipped off balance and went down
with it. The next thing I knew my children were pulling coats
off of me, laughing.
Bobby's second leave was completely different than his first, and I
mean completely different. I don't know if it's because
they'd had time to process the change in their relationship, or maybe
because they'd both gone without sex for seven months.
It started with her asking him to put lotion on her belly. He
applied himself with vigor. I happened to be doing something
on the computer, and I don't know if that had anything to do with the
escalation of things, but when I got up to go get something to drink he
was putting lotion on her breasts too.
Her shirt was up to her neck and her bra had been undone. I
had an errant thought of that Karate Kid movie, because it looked like
Bobby was doing wax on ... wax off. Chrissy's head was back
on the couch and she was humming.
"That feels so much better when you do it," she sighed. "I'm
so horny, Bobby."
"I can't believe how big your nipples have gotten," he said
softly. "The last time I saw them they were little pink
things."
"Everything on me is bigger because of you," she said a little
breathily.
He leaned forward and sucked a nipple. Her "Oooooo" was
followed by her head coming up and our eyes met. She blinked,
and then he sucked harder or something because her mouth went slack and
her hands came to his head to pull him to her breasts. She
made a face and, looking right at me, mouthed the word, "sorry."
I turned away, mostly because my cock was trying like crazy to burst
through my pants. As I walked away I heard her say "Bobby,
Daddy saw you!"
I could just barely hear his response: "Mmmmmmm."
I guess they either got too wound up, or they had come to grips with
this new relationship, because maybe five minutes later I heard them
going into her room, just down the hall from my home office.
She said "Bobby I don't know if I can!" and he responded "We'll find a
way." Her next comment was, "But what about Daddy?" but his reply was cut off by the door closing.
It didn't take a lot of imagination to figure out what they had in mind.
And my imagination should have sufficed ... but it didn't. I
lasted another five minutes, maybe, before I couldn't help becoming a
voyeur. I know that social convention prohibits one from
watching others do something like what I was sure they were
doing. But social convention prohibits what they were doing
in the first place. So I didn't feel all that bad as I
tiptoed to the door and cracked it open. I wasn't trying to
let them know I was there, but then again, I don't think I cared if
they did know.
I didn't intrude. By that I mean I didn't go in the
room. I just opened the door enough to see an amazingly
beautiful naked, pregnant, young woman, astride an equally amazingly
beautiful naked young man. I didn't know then that this was
only the second time they'd made love. If I had I'd have been
even more amazed at how proficient she'd become in just five
minutes. She'd settled on his youthful boner and was shoving
her hips forward and backward as if she'd done this a hundred times
before. He was mauling her swollen breasts when I first
opened the door, but his hands slid down and became amazingly gentle as
they smoothed over her jutting belly.
"Ohhhhh I needed this so badly," she moaned.
"I love you," he whispered. It wasn't clear whether he was
talking to the woman impaled on his thrusting rigid prick, or the baby
in the belly he was stroking.
I don't know whether I'd seen enough, or I just wanted to return to the
social convention of not intruding, but I closed the door. I
do know I'll never forget that scene. It was as if a master
painter had used my memory as a canvas. My cock was insanely
hard, so I abandoned social convention once more by going to my room,
where I lay on my bed and imagined I was Bobby. Her cry of
release came through the wall, or maybe the air conditioning duct work,
but as she came ... I spurted jets of semen a foot into the air.
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